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Beliefs I have had lots of time to ponder the deeper meanings of life in the past few weeks. My entire world has shut down for a little bit and I am left to think about many things. Something that keeps coming up for me is “What do I believe?” Dissecting my beliefs one by one asking if they actually make any sense or if I just believe them because I always have. I realized that beliefs are a unique force in nature that causes things to happen.   They literally are the beginning point of all creation.  W hat’s fascinating about them is they can change according to what we want to experience, but only if we believe so. For instance, if I had a belief that “I’m fat” running through my mind and I never gave it a question. If I just accepted it then my body, my world, the mirror, would begin to prove my belief to me. In every instance, I would begin to feel uncomfortable in my body. I would loose motivation to eat right and exercise. I would spend my days on the co...

Whats in the middle of the onion when you peel it? Nothing! Whats in the middle of each of us when you get deep enough? Nothing! This Nothing is the empty void we all emerge from, it is what we all go back to and it is inevitable. However we are in the time of the onion peeling so peel away. Each layer of this delicate skin represents a question or issue we enjoy playing with, my layer was about worth and value and the measure of success. I asked around for others to answer taking a pole of opinion, this is what I got. What makes a person valuable? The answers are all over the board. Mostly what people agreed on was that value can only come from the person. Each individual must determine his or her own value. The way to knowing this is through self worth the way to self worth is through loving the self. The way to love the self is through acceptance and looking inward for appreciation and acknowledgement. What is the measure of success? There were many answers ...

I chose my own limiting beliefs; I chose the path that I’m walking on, I chose my hardships and roadblocks, I chose the things that would challenge my self the absolute most because I knew I could overcome them, I knew that all of this is a temporary magnificent experience and I would figure it out in the short time I had here. I chose things that would keep me obsessed and trapped, limited, hopeless. I put up my shields and challenged myself to a duel. What happens when I see through this façade? What happens when I put the shields down and realize my own power? What happens when I feel the reality of who/what I really am? Letting go of the sabotage. Letting go of the need to feel hurt. Letting go of the need to be right. Letting go of fury, rage, anger, and hatred.   Letting go of judgment and criticism of my self and others. Letting go of my resistance to love. What’s left? Essence breath lightheartedness joy laughter peace ...

I have loved you before and I will l love you after. There is no real separation only a forgetting. A forgetting that I am you and you are me, we are all the same. My time in this forgetful place is but a moment. An experience of what I am not and then a remembering of what I am. A prison of flesh and emotion will cloud my essence but I know I will remember and I will help others remember and we will all be back together and whole. All of us. I feel what I have known for a longtime I AM This is so clear, Everything, good, bad, ugly, happy, holy, evil, wealthy, sick, all of humanity, all of nature, and universe, I am, All of it. I feel it coursing through my veins, my body knows, she knows. I want to run around screaming, I get it, I get it. Wake up everyone, we are all the same! Wake up this is just a game. This is not real. My heart is so full; this flesh is holding me back. I love this skin, I love this experience, I am left with a deep desire ...