sum ergo sum

Lessons form mom.  As the days and moments of my life blend together, I realize that my original thought patterns were inspired by a loving, gracious human I get to call mom.   She came into this planet with a strong desire to understand the nature of god and her role as a woman. Times were very different then and her contrast of aloof parents caused her to search for a greater meaning and understanding of life.   As a very young girl she was drawn to religion, she explored many different churches until she found one that worked well for her.   The parameters of religious views gave her a platform to stand on and a mindset of a loving god and a trust in the process of life.   She raised all of her children in a place of wonder and connection. We learned at an early age that life is so much more than we can see with our eyes.  Her profound connection to the divine was my inspiration to develop my own love and connection. ...

Something in me said to stop searching and just live now. Take a big breath and be present. Feel your skin, smell the air, taste your sweet mouth, see what’s in front of you, hear the wonderful world around you right now and sense the world unseen. Everything un-folds as it needs to there’s no rush. Those things that I desire are already in motion and do exist at a future time or they would not be in my mind and heart. Slow down this is the only reality in this moment. Allow this future self to guide you.  It’s as if the future part of me already has a hold, she is like a fisherman with a beautiful cast she has gently hooked me and is reeling me toward the future self. It is possible to just allow this reeling to bring me forward to call my self into the next moment and the next but I must stay present now or I will miss the gift of now. Now is all there is. The rush to get to another place is a road- block to that place, and pushing to go there will only i...