sum ergo sum

Something in me said to stop searching and just live now. Take a big breath and be present. Feel your skin, smell the air, taste your sweet mouth, see what’s in front of you, hear the wonderful world around you right now and sense the world unseen. Everything un-folds as it needs to there’s no rush. Those things that I desire are already in motion and do exist at a future time or they would not be in my mind and heart. Slow down this is the only reality in this moment. Allow this future self to guide you.  It’s as if the future part of me already has a hold, she is like a fisherman with a beautiful cast she has gently hooked me and is reeling me toward the future self. It is possible to just allow this reeling to bring me forward to call my self into the next moment and the next but I must stay present now or I will miss the gift of now. Now is all there is. The rush to get to another place is a road- block to that place, and pushing to go there will only i...

For the sake of it I am writing to you this beautiful southern Colorado spring morning, there is no reason, there is just  you and I and these words.   Doing for the sake of doing. Writing for the sake of writing, loving for the sake of loving. Giving up “in order to.” Yesterday I spent most of the day cutting down fences and listening to my breath. I quietly felt as thought every stretch of barbed wire that I rolled up was in a way freeing the land. As my mind would wander some how I kept cutting and rolling this rusty spiky wire. I realized that my body doesn’t need me. My mind can be a million miles away and my body will continue on the task at hand. I also realized that when I was able to reel in my thoughts and quiet them down, that I was able to also experience the sensations of doing, breathing, moving, the ground beneath me, the birds chirping, the sun shining, and the mountains being mountains. There is something truly spectacular about just being, the mom...