sum ergo sum

Time such a tricky concept. Lately it has had a strange effect on my brain and all time seems to mesh into one huge bubble of random events. Time is not linear it’s a swirling cyclone of floating particles lifting and falling as the days pass.  Today it has been 500 days since the Passing of my sweet daughter Juliana Sunn Ellsmore  She lived a total of 7,218 days.  It feels like yesterday and a million days ago.  How is it possible to fit an entire life into a tiny envelope of days, minutes, and seconds.  Life seems to transcend time. When I look back I see a whole lot of empty space, a vast blackness lit up by sparkly moments glistening into my memory. When I look forward I see the same vast nothingness lit up by sparkles of possibilities. Maybe time is actually space and its moments are stars. Now is all there is, Now, this exact moment.  How many stars will I create with this moment?

Clearing the clutter What gets in the way of being present? All the cobwebs of thought and belief. All the thought we carry around about what’s right and what’s wrong and how things are and how they should be. Time to let go and clear the space of old mess. Time to open up for what’s Now. The wisdom of the ages is lovely and easy to get wrapped up in but it is just clutter. It fills the space. The space must be open and empty. Empty from opinion Empty from belief Open to possibility Open to presence Open to bliss The term ignorance is bliss rings true for me. For if we could be ignorant to the mishaps to the wrong doings to the injustice to the pain and sadness, we can cultivate a Empty space of Now. What’s now?  Clearing, cleaning, whipping out the regrets and ill feelings wiping out the interpretations. Wiping out the messy tangled webs of belief. Just being in innocence of the moment Being and experiencing the true natu...