time

Time such a tricky concept. Lately it has had a strange effect on my brain and all time seems to mesh into one huge bubble of random events. Time is not linear it’s a swirling cyclone of floating particles lifting and falling as the days pass. 
Today it has been 500 days since the Passing of my sweet daughter Juliana Sunn Ellsmore 
She lived a total of 7,218 days.  It feels like yesterday and a million days ago. 
How is it possible to fit an entire life into a tiny envelope of days, minutes, and seconds. 
Life seems to transcend time. When I look back I see a whole lot of empty space, a vast blackness lit up by sparkly moments glistening into my memory. When I look forward I see the same vast nothingness lit up by sparkles of possibilities. Maybe time is actually space and its moments are stars.
Now is all there is, Now, this exact moment. 
How many stars will I create with this moment?

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