sum ergo sum

My ego and I   I awoke from a dream of chaos and turmoil, feeling confused and frustrated, furious, misunderstood, ignored, unimportant, insignificant. These feelings lingered for a bit muddying up my beautiful morning and then something happened as I sat with the feelings. (I literally sat on the couch with a note pad and cup of coffee and would take notes as the storm cloud of emotions passed through me.) The scary feelings began to pass and I began to feel free, this process wasn’t one of conjuring up meaning around the emotion only one of just being with the emotion. I imagined this emotion was like a friend I can sit quietly with. As the emotion passed I began to see a mental program that has been running my life. This program was put in place for my survival. It was a necessary program for all of us when we lived with wild animals trying to eat us. But I could see how this program needed some updating. My Ego, I imagine her as a young dominatrix dressed in black leathe...

I have loved you before and I will l love you after. There is no real separation only a forgetting. A forgetting that I am you and you are me, we are all the same. My time in this forgetful place is but a moment. An experience of what I am not and then a remembering of what I am. A prison of flesh and emotion will cloud my essence but I know I will remember and I will help others remember and we will all be back together and whole. All of us. I feel what I have known for a longtime I AM This is so clear, Everything, good, bad, ugly, happy, holy, evil, wealthy, sick, all of humanity, all of nature, and universe, I am, All of it. I feel it coursing through my veins, my body knows, she knows. I want to run around screaming, I get it, I get it. Wake up everyone, we are all the same! Wake up this is just a game. This is not real. My heart is so full; this flesh is holding me back. I love this skin, I love this experience, I am left with a deep desire ...