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Smile once smile twice smile for the tears you pretend not to cry  when youre alone in the night  Laugh just once laugh just twice  not to make them think havn't lost you mind  well not just yet anyways  Just because your heart is frowning doesn’t mean the love is drowning just keep head up high  Listen to the words that I'm say'n  hear the chords that I'm play'n   Please don’t forget my love  That life is worth it  cause you are so perfect to me  Sit next to her sit next to him  just to fake yet another stupid grin  and hope  no one asks whats wrong  Grab your heaphones play your music  ignore the world, you just mute it anyways. Just ignore the hate  Just because youre heart is frowning  doesn’t mean the love is drowning  Just keep head up high,  listen to the words that I'm sing'n  hear te chords that I'm play'...

Thinking about my daughter and her brief 19 years on this planet has given me a new feeling about my own life. I am so fortunate to have had so many beautiful years with her. Her passing has made me embrace my living children with tremendous love and affection. I have a new respect for all the living beings on this planet and a complete appreciation for how we each affect each other’s lives. Every life is important and special and I know we are here to live fully with no regrets. In the last few weeks of her life I had the privilege of spending lots of time with her. Together we found an apartment in Denver. We moved her belongings into our new place, laughed about being schoolgirls and roommates together. We dreamt about or future and all the new possibilities. We talked about how excited she was to graduate from massage school and begin her career. We drank wine from mugs and shared a meatball sub on the couch. Life was so thrilling and bright for her. I know as she was dr...