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Yoga Alchemy Why did I go and what did I get? Originally I decided to go on this yoga retreat because I was feeling like I would like to learn from great teachers. I wanted to take some time for my self and do something different, to have a little adventure in the middle of my very ordinary life. I love the unknown and the feelings that come with planning for something completely out of the ordinary. Knowing one of the facilitators I felt that this journey would be safe enough. If he’s gone there before I should be fine. The Space looked gorgeous on the website and apparently has hosted many other retreat groups before.   When I purchased the retreat I didn’t tell my husband for the fear of his reaction to my being frivolous and selfish, of course these were my own hang-ups. When I finally told him about my trip he was very supportive. He said, “ you’re a grown ass woman, you can do what ever you want.” As I was traveling my audio book of choice was Jos...

come to me let me love you come to me exactly as you are come to me there is no other only you only I only i beloved

Talking to my self,  At night I lay in my bed caress my skin and whisper sweet nothings to my self. I say things like I love you so much Sariah. Thank you for being the person you are. Thank you for sharing your body with me, for being open and willing to understand this universe. Thank you for your perspective. I adore you. I truly cherish my time with you. Every part of you is precious and I am so grateful to be having this experience of loving you completely. Every ounce of who I am is in love with every ounce of you. I love your mind, your body, down to every tiny working cell and most of all I love your heart. I love witnessing the expansion of you. You are my favorite person on this planet. My wish is your command. Anything, you can conjurer up I will gladly give to you. You are my world.

Misogynistic This scary hateful word crossed my mind recently What came about because of this thought was liberating, soulful, connecting, mind altering for me. Let me explain. I’ve been putting together a teachers training program, for my yoga school. Daily research into books and teachers and words of insight has been my morning ritual. I love learning, and challenging my self to continuously go deeper into the unknown of my personality, my limitations and beliefs. It would only make sense that as I create a transformation program for others I too will have to feel the fires of transformation. Reading through the Warrior Goddess Training by Heatherash Amara, I discovered that I don’t like women. In fact it has been a much stronger feeling than dislike more like hatred. Now I know that even admitting to this there are a lot of women in my life that would reject this statement because I do love them dearly. However, as I dig into the limiting mental programs that I have ...