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A balloon ride, three friends, 3000 feet above the earth, topless. This all started as a pet project. One day my girlfriends and I decided we would be travel bloggers. Our intention was to travel the world, see exotic places, experience wonderful adventures and enjoy amazing events, then share the stories with all of you through blogging. Our first task was to create a Day full of fun and excitement right in our own back yard. The beautiful town of Pagosa Springs Colorado is nestled in the San Juan Mountains, and already a very popular tourist destination. The day was to be a portrayal of our love of travel, friendship and fun. Hoping to inspire others along the way. The topless bit was discussed as a way to celebrate our glorious wild women sisterhood and challenge others to embrace their bodies and be a little risqué simply for the sake of it.      (side note)…..I have never flashed anyone and in fact grew up in a rigorous religious household that...

Memory A young 24 year old pregnant woman crying in a heap on the bathroom floor. Pleading to God to just make it end. I was begging God to take away my life and end the misery. The pain was tremendous and I knew I couldn’t bare it for one more day. At the time my husband and I and two little children lived in house in San Diego with several other people. The house was rented by the owner of the company we worked for. We rented a small bedroom from him.    We were both working for a direct sales and marketing company and had nothing to our name except a few suit cases, an air mattress, (we slept on with our toddler son), and a playpen set up as my baby daughters makeshift crib. Our bags were stacked around the tiny room. My husband and I had to put our two little ones into a day care in order to go out into the sales field daily just to make enough money to buy milk and diapers maybe remain noodles for that day. My son pretty much lived off of peanut butter. Durin...

Comfort zone Waking up with a headache, foggy brain, sore tired body, and heavy eyes, then jumping into a rental car on the other side of the planet.   Trusting that my navigation will take me safely through all the one ways and roundabouts, narrow roads and the Autostrada. Driving a car in Florence Italy was one of the challenges that had me questioning my ability as a driver and my own good judgment. However the call for an adventure was clearly louder than the call to be reasonable. As I drove in this foreign land I had an over whelming sensation that every thing will be alright just pay attention. My first stop on the Autostrada was an Auto Grill (Gas station stop on the toll road with food and shops) where I picked up water, Chianti, and an old school paper map. Then proceeded to find my way through beautiful Tuscany.   Into the little town of Caviglia and the gorgeous 700 year old villa Le Lappe. This trip was planned as a destination wedding for my Sweet friend a...

Fast forward How do I want it to be? This little question has changed my life. I’ll explain. I have been plagued with an over active imagination, I have spent 90% of my life in my own mind thinking, wondering, pondering contemplating, conjuring, complaining, worrying, stressing, fighting. Only recently have I even realized that most of what I think isn’t real. Its just my mind running around in circles making me crazy. It feels as if my mind has a need to stay busy, active, moving so that I feel productive and important. Gaining control of this run away freight train has been quite a challenge. My thoughts have now decided the best time of attack is the middle of the night, usually around 3am. I wake with tremendous anxiety about everything. There have been nights I’m completely drenched in sweat any my jaw hurts and other nights where I feel such a debilitating fear I cannot move or breathe. Why am I telling you about this part of my life? Some how I know that we a...

Yesterday my husband and I had an argument, we usually get a little mouthy after a couple margaritas. He was frustrated with me for not knowing what is going on in the world. My lack of interest in politics and current affairs as well as the brutal ways people are hurting each other, makes him crazy. I agreed with him and admitted to doing this on purpose. Focusing on the hurtful things people are doing out there in the world doesn’t feel good to me. I intentionally do not watch news or read articles of this type, I scroll through the heated opinions quickly on social media not engaging on purpose. I hone in on the many occurrences of love and kindness that are occurring all the time. This is how I stay uplifted my self, then do what I can to share it with others. Here’s what I understand. ·         We cannot feel bad enough about anything to make it change. ·       Focusing in on negativity will bring more of it. ·  ...