You don't have to do it alone
One of my favorite Books The Shack.
I recently have been going through a really dark and frightening transition in my life, one that I didn’t want to even consider looking at,but needless to say life is about change and we cannot deny it. The Change I’m referring to has been coming for a while now and like it or not My Husband of 22 years and I will be going through a Divorce.
At first all of this was heart breaking and scary and I felt so alone but something came over me. “YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO THIS ALONE”
I talked to God,
I asked for guidance, here’s what I got.
First I had a comforting sensation and a reassuring feeling that everything will be ok. I was guided to look into my own darkest part of my heart shedding light on what it is I’m still holding onto. What it is that is causing my pain. What I saw was a refusal to love. I saw a great fear of my own wellbeing and future. I saw how my fear kept me in a small, trapped angry place and that loving was not possible as long as I held on to this fear. Trusting is not possible as long as I refused to love and loving is only accessible when I first love myself completely.
My realizations came to me in the middle of the night. I immediately woke my husband up and said "what would all of this look like if we just refuse to hurt each other"?
What if we both look out for the other and do our very best to share love and kindness and support through this transition? What is possible in the way of moving through one of life’s most terrifying events with the love and support of each other. He is a good man and I know his heart so I knew he would get it.
We did, and our now so frightening experience can shift into fantastic friendship. We have decided that we can help set each other up so that our lives can reflect this love. We can be peace in the middle of the chaos. We can speak our truth from our hearts and know that everything will be ok. We don’t have to do it alone, asking for guidance along the way,we can both feel loved and supported not only by each other but by the wonderful God force that wants us to ALL just be happy.