A shift in the Force.
Something has shifted~ The day before the 18 th I woke with an amazing feeling of clarity. My eyes shot right open as I felt the heavy mental fog lift off my tormented brain. This feeling was so intense that it was all I could talk about for the past two days. I feel wonderful!!! Its been 9 months since my daughter left this world. I have been writing everyday, spilling my heart out to my journals trying to make sense of my world. Every single day she would bombard my thoughts. Every single day I would have intense emotion flooding my cells. Every day tears would flow, so much some times that I couldn’t be in public. Every day I questioned my course of action and my purpose on this planet. When am I going to feel better? How long does it take to grieve the loss of a loved one? When will I actually let go of the sadness? When can I just be happy to be alive? This whole process has been one of learning to let go of needing to control anything, es