a letter to my daughter
Juliana, Sweet darling, I miss you. Its been 599 days, there are still so many days it’s hard to believe you have left this world. I love you so much. Your passing has been a freaking wrecking ball on this existence. My world seems flat at many times, dull, pointless. However this is only the contrast to the many moments of magic I experience, because you have left. Its the shading to the brilliant landscape. I suppose it’s all necessary in order to truly see a picture, there has to be dark places. I want to focus on the light, on the many moments of beauty I have experienced because of you. I take life more slowly these days nothing is important especially the little things, like needing to look good or be right. I stopped fighting and started listening. I look for reasons to be grateful everyday and know that the impermanent nature of this world is a gift. It’s like being on vacation when there are limited days and every day counts. I want to fill my experience