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Memory A young 24 year old pregnant woman crying in a heap on the bathroom floor. Pleading to God to just make it end. I was begging God to take away my life and end the misery. The pain was tremendous and I knew I couldn’t bare it for one more day. At the time my husband and I and two little children lived in house in San Diego with several other people. The house was rented by the owner of the company we worked for. We rented a small bedroom from him.    We were both working for a direct sales and marketing company and had nothing to our name except a few suit cases, an air mattress, (we slept on with our toddler son), and a playpen set up as my baby daughters makeshift crib. Our bags were stacked around the tiny room. My husband and I had to put our two little ones into a day care in order to go out into the sales field daily just to make enough money to buy milk and diapers maybe remain noodles for that day. My son pretty much lived off of peanut butter. During this ch

Comfort zone Waking up with a headache, foggy brain, sore tired body, and heavy eyes, then jumping into a rental car on the other side of the planet.   Trusting that my navigation will take me safely through all the one ways and roundabouts, narrow roads and the Autostrada. Driving a car in Florence Italy was one of the challenges that had me questioning my ability as a driver and my own good judgment. However the call for an adventure was clearly louder than the call to be reasonable. As I drove in this foreign land I had an over whelming sensation that every thing will be alright just pay attention. My first stop on the Autostrada was an Auto Grill (Gas station stop on the toll road with food and shops) where I picked up water, Chianti, and an old school paper map. Then proceeded to find my way through beautiful Tuscany.   Into the little town of Caviglia and the gorgeous 700 year old villa Le Lappe. This trip was planned as a destination wedding for my Sweet friend and her ad