Spirit support

Spirit support

11 months today, our beautiful Juliana left this world.

  

Its been a whirlwind of an experience. 

 I haven’t been posting in my blog as my attention was intensely focused on studying and passing my flight exam and check ride. 

I’m happy to announce the instrument rating is now behind me as I passed with flying colors, literally. 

The magnitude of the preparation has been all consuming. I didn’t know that I actually had the ability to study with such dedication. The flying practice itself was extremely challenging and many days I wanted to give up. 

During the check ride, (after we had been already flying for over an hour,) I was feeling extreme doubt and exhaustion. My examiner was doing his best to cause a disorienting situation by changing my instruments. He placed sticky notes on three of the critical instruments then expected me to find my way with only use of a oscillating compass, all the time remaining on course. 

I was privately in a panic doing my best to figure out where I was and continuing to fly with precision. 

My body tightened up as I felt unbearable uncertainty creep in. 

I then had a sweet sensation, the feeling of a gentle hand on my shoulder and a warm assuring whisper in my ear. Juliana was with me, she said, “Mom you got this, calm down, breathe, just relax you can do it, its just a game”.    

The rest of the flight was smooth, easy, relaxing I knew I had my angel daughter with me.

I am so incredibly grateful to know that death is not the end.  Our moments in life are here to teach us about our own strengths and abilities. We get this precious time to play the game of life, and to embrace each other in all of it.

 I have recorded as much of the past tormenting year in my journals and will be sharing them with all of you in a book titled SUNN. I hope that in sharing these personal moments I might inspire you to love more deeply, cherish the time you have and open up to the loving support that is available from spirit. 

With so much love~S